Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Something in the Way

This has been a humbug week.  As Holly Golightly would say, I have been suffering through the mean reds.  The mean reds are resistant to ice cream and glitter, little children (especially when said little children take the nail clippers to your hair (note to all - 'safety snippers' is a false name)) and bubble baths.    Mean reds are tricky.

And yet, the smallest moment can cure them.  Or at least take the edge off.

Brushing my teeth and already angry at this day, I rounded the corner and was brought to pause.  Perhaps it was because the sun has been hiding for two days.  Perhaps because the winter earth angle dislikes showing real light before 7:30 am and I was made confused. Or perhaps because everything illuminated framed those I love best.  But there was something in the way the early morning light shimmied over my buffet and glimmered across my pictures, highlighting my Sandburg reminder to let a joy keep you.  



I said out loud, muffled by toothpaste, "There is something in the way..."

Which led to the singing of this song in the shower, which is also excellent for nudging aside the mean reds.


The mean reds haven't quite dissolved, but I have been reminded to look for something in the ways.



Saturday, September 8, 2012

When You Don't Want to Buy a Headboard...

I recently moved into a lovely and quiet apartment (can I get a What.What. for no longer living next to a multi-level, racist, techno-nightclub).  The only problem is that the walls are ghostly white and I can't paint them.  This is fine in most rooms - I am very happy to hang pictures.  However, this creates a dilemma in my bedroom.  I do not have a headboard and do not feel like paying money for one.  And I will not hang pictures above my head (I have visions of being decapitated in the middle of the night by a falling framed work of art).  So I decided to get crafty with a little bit of silver floral wire, silk flowers and my trusty hot glue gun.

First I twisted the silver floral wire into some sort of loose-y goose-y version of a circle.  
Then I pulled all of the flowers off of their stem and cut a slit in the stem.  I tried several ways and settled on my little pointy scissors.  It is important to keep this little stem on the flowers because it allows the flowers to stay secure against the wire.   

Slicing the little stems took awhile.  You should probably plan on watching at least one episode of Project Runway.  

Handy dandy hot glue gun.  Do not burn yourself.  

Dab the glue onto the stem and then slide the slit onto the wire.  You may need to hold the flower for a moment to let the glue set.  I just glued all around the shape until I had filled in as much space as I wanted.  It is helpful to hang the wire circle somehow.  I like to use paperclips and the backs of chairs for my various hanging needs. 

Tada.  The first one is hanging to dry.


The finished product.  I tied fishing line to the tops of them and hung them at various lengths in a cluster of three.  They are simple, pretty and airy.  They cast neat shadows on the wall and sway when I leave the window open.  

Finished product up close and personal.

Creating Kathleen's Mobile

Over the summer I spent some time crafting a mobile for one of my new favorite little ladies, Baby Kathleen.  I hope you enjoy this bright and whimsical mobile - I am pleased with how it turned out.
Bright felt is a must. 


Fabric scraps are also helpful to have around. 

Did you really think I could craft something without a little bit of sparkle?  Please. 


Building a bird. 



Baby girl has an owl theme . 

Fun fabrics and shapes for flowers and leaves.

Owls are finished!

Foliage and fauna is ready to be strung. 

Two types of birds make a mobile double the fun. 

That bird is checking out the Chicago skyline. 


Tada.   Finished!



Mixing elements - felt, sequins, ribbon, glass and wire - adds unexpected movement. 

A bit of detail work. 
I am so happy my little Labor of Love has a happy home.  

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Words to Skee

For the past 9 years, Skee has been my main man.  My noble beast.  Our family dog.  He has had many names.  His full name is Raoul Rapinski.  We call him Skee.  Or Beezer.  Or Skeezer McBeezer. 

Our first family photo was taken on my 21st birthday.  June 5, 2003.  Skee has been part of every event - tiny and insignificant or huge - since that moment.  He is the one that showed my brother that dogs aren't scary.  He has been by my side for big heart breaks and little ones.  He has road tripped back and forth to Colorado many times with mom and dad.  He kept mom and dad company when TJ moved to Colorado and I moved to California.  He was Nana's Baby Dog and Grandpa kept a box of dog treats by his chair for him.  Skee was my sidekick and rock when Dad got sick and I stayed home to run the family company.  He was a full-fledged member of our family.

We had to let Skee go this week.  Tuesday, August 21, 2012.  He became sick several weeks ago, but he did not appear to be in pain.  This weekend we were all home with him.  I came in from Chicago.  TJ and his dog, Frank, were in from Colorado.  It was a very special time - Skee's whole family was with him and he seemed to be doing better.  TJ and I both left Monday night.  Tuesday afternoon he was gone.  None of us thought it would be that soon.

I am struggling a bit with this one.  And by a bit, I mean a lot.  He was such an important part of our family.  He was funny and loyal and so gentle.  Skee liked ice cream (obviously - he was my dog, after all), buttered popcorn and Panera bread.  He loved eating snow and chewing on a little rope that Grandpa made him.  He had a mad dash that looked more like a rabbit jump than any dog maneuver I have ever seen.   He was black as night so did not photograph well and the humans had to shuffle-walk if the lights were out.  He was completely invisible in the dark.  He went to work everyday with Mom and would rather be with us, even if it was just running errands in the car, than at home.  He lost several of his toes to doggie toe tumors and was still one of the most graceful and silent creatures I have seen.  He ignored the new dog - George - until the day he helped him escape from his puppy condo.  And he bit Tj's new pup on the nose as a way to solidify their new friendship.  He definitely had personality and spunk.

Skee was very good at making crappy moments not quite so crappy.  So maybe that's why he only shared 9 years with us; he fit so much love and healing into that time frame that he had no more to share.  

So, my brave and noble beast.  You have been a gentleman and a scholar.  You have made so many hours, days, and years better because of what you were and how you loved us.  I am so grateful to have spent this time with you.  I miss you very much.  We all do.

I love you.  
Skee's first family photo.  My 21st Birthday.  June 2003
Baby Skeezer at the lake.  2003
TJ and Skee stretching out.  2004
Dad and Skee.  Christmas 2005
Summer 2004
Boating with Mom and Dad. 
Roadtrip out West.  2008
Meeting George Brinkely for the first time.  Not impressed.  2010
Swimming with Mom.  
Enough love for all dogs.  Summer 2011
Skee.  Summer 2011
Serious chat with TJ



The only time he ever jumped willingly in the water. 
Enjoying the view. 
Mad dogs racing.  George, Frank and Skee.  Summer 2011
The Hartridge Hounds.  Skee, George Brinkley and Frank.  2011
Skee and Mom.  Christmas 2011

Skee and George reading with Mom.  
Christmas in Vail.  2011
Holiday Hounds.  Christmas 2011
Weather Watching. 
Skee.  August 19, 2012
Raoul Rapinksi.  August 19, 2012
Enjoying his last sunset.  August 20, 2012. 

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Finding Beauty in This Day

Notice a moment.  It can be beautiful.  It can be unexpected.  But notice, recognize, and capture.  Send it to me.  

That was my assignment for today.  
The purpose was two-fold.  

1.  Over the past several weeks my Writing, Rhetoric and Discourse class has been reading articles titled "Is Google Making Us Stupid" and "Studies Explore if This is the Dumbest Generation".  They say no.  I say perhaps (most definitely).  We all agree that the generation is lazy. The majority of my students do not know where the University library is and only a handful of students knew what I meant when I referred to the stacks.  This current generation of college students is missing a large part of what made my college so memorable and special - it cannot all be found in a dorm room playing World of Warcraft and all that could, and should, be learned is not available on Wikipedia.


I learned that my students do not remember the last time they turned their cell phone off; they admitted they are afraid of silence, afraid of their own thoughts.  When asked what they truly believe in, less than 10 percent could express something.  The Seinfeld notion of nihilism is certainly strong at the college level.  That alone is troubling, but not something that I have the class time or the resources to fully tackle.  Their lack of living in the moment, though, was something I could take a stand on.  Encourage them to take their face out of their cell phone screen to actually notice the world that they passively drift through.  

So they had to find a moment of beauty.  The only rule was that they could not use the Internet to find it.


My email was filled with 43 pictures today.  I would like to share several with you - along with the rationale the student provided.  

It seems really cliche for me to send a picture of flowers but it was more than just the flowers that made yesterday beautiful. With the weather being absolutely gorgeous the past two days my friends and I went to Lincoln Park to study. After about three hours of reading and studying we walked through the conservatory and it was probably one of the most beautiful places I've been to in awhile. It wasn't just the beauty of the plants but also the beauty of the day. I was able to leave the library and be productive out in the real world. I was not connected to the internet or any form of electronic device (accidentally left my phone in the dorm). Upon seeing the flowers I could not have been happier with how my day was, and that is when I was really able to appreciate the beauty of a flower on march 6th.

The picture I chose to take was this one. I take for granted the fact that I live in such an amazing metropolis and don't remember that I might never have the chance to live in the Chicago loop. To be able to live here is a beautiful thing.






This is a picture of my buddy Ray. We saw these dogs attached to a tree so Ray starts to play with them. I have never seen him so happy! Happiness equals Beauty!


I am sending you this picture for my unexpected beauty assignment.  This flag flies above my neighbors house.  He was a member of the armed forces and died roughly six months ago of an aneurysm.  The flag has been flying since the day he passed away.  I never realized how beautiful it was until I took a picture of it.  


I took this picture last night while I was driving through the city. It was Chicago's 175th anniversary so that is why the 175 is on the building. I would of never seen it if I was on my phone texting. I thought this was a pretty amazing photo. Hope you like it! Have a great day!



This was taken on a bridge in Pescara, Italy.  Each lock is a wish someone made.  It reminds me that hope can be tangible. 
I woke up early and walked to the beach before the sunrise.  I do this when I am overwhelmed.  Today I am glad I did because the sunrise over Lake Michigan was beautiful and is often unseen. 












I was walking down the lake shore and saw this - someone had written it in chalk (is this the right way to use dashes?  I am trying to work on expanding my styles for you).  I thought the message was beautiful and unexpected.  Who doesn't think this at times, but who rarely expresses that feeling.  









2.  My second motive for this assignment was purely selfish.  I needed some beauty.  I needed to know that others saw the beauty, too.  

I don't like this day.  I don't like it for two reasons.  One is complicated and long, and not something I am willing to go into here.  But the other is more recent, and quite concrete.  



I need to tell you about my Aunt Marie.  

There have been numerous moments over this academic year when I have asked myself what my Aunt Marie would do.  Marie Stevens, the first female Dean of Students at Western Michigan University, knew how to handle delicate and sensitive issues that college students face.  She would know how to find the young man who went MIA after sending a cryptic email.  She would know what to say to the panicking young woman who showed up in my office door frame.  She would know how to find funding for the students who want so desperately to be here, and put forth great effort to succeed, but can't pay the full tuition and therefore have to leave.  She would know how to help the student that is homeless and sleeping on the floor of the computer lab.  She would know how to whip the entitled and disrespectful lazy students into shape.  I think about her every time I try to fix their problems, help them find their place in the world.  I think of the stories Aunt Marie told me and figure out how she would handle the situation.  


There was about a week, week and half, when we knew that Aunt Marie was dying.  I was in Chicago, working and taking classes to complete my masters.  She was in Michigan.  I didn't get to see her.  She didn't want me there; she didn't want me to remember her the way that she was at that final moment.  Every day I asked mom if I should come home, if she had changed her mind about me coming.  Every day mom said no.  


I should have gone anyway.   

I was very angry.  I still am.  I was angry at her for not wanting me there, for thinking I would only remember her in that last time.  But I was more angry with myself.  How did she know how much I loved her if I couldn't even make it there; what good was honoring her wish?    

But honor it I did.  And instead of seeing her again, I built the flowers for her celebration of life.  They were bright and vibrant.  Flashes of red, streaks of purple, frothy petals winking at the clouds.  They were big and powerful.  Unexpected.  Unexpected moments of beauty and movement on a day I did not want to be witnessing.  They were on tables, and tucked in corners.  They were every where you looked.

Every time I see a purple iris I think of my Aunt Marie.  When I catch a glimpse of her Golden Gate Bridge print that hangs on my office wall I pause.  Each time I look at my students I think what a great team we are making.  

And now I will associate 43 beautiful captured moments with my Aunt Marie.  

I know she would be proud of how much of her there is in me.  How much of what I believe is influenced by her.    

I miss her a great deal.  Kiddo, I can hear her say, stop being dramatic.  Oh, but grant me a quick moment.  Then I'll buck up and have some mashed potatoes and peas.  Just allow me one moment to be dramatic and sentimental.  And a little bit sad.      

Today marks two years.  She never married.  She never had children.  But she was - and is - so very  loved.